“Peace is not the absence of conflict, but the ability to cope with it” – Unknown
After days and weeks of sadness, I began to realize how much of myself I gave up to 'keep the peace.' As I sat alone in my house for the first time on my own, I realized what complete peace was, inside and out. This new found peace was filled with a sense of calm. A peaceful heart free from worry and angst. I was starting over and rediscovering who I was, but at the same time in disbelief as to how I could have lost myself so completely. Small steps so subtle that I hadn't realized I became the shell of my former self. I was now faced with reclaiming the positive, happy girl I once knew.
After days and weeks of sadness, I began to realize how much of myself I gave up to 'keep the peace.' As I sat alone in my house for the first time on my own, I realized what complete peace was, inside and out. This new found peace was filled with a sense of calm. A peaceful heart free from worry and angst. I was starting over and rediscovering who I was, but at the same time in disbelief as to how I could have lost myself so completely. Small steps so subtle that I hadn't realized I became the shell of my former self. I was now faced with reclaiming the positive, happy girl I once knew.
The positive, happy girl said...please just understand this time in your life. You will have the strength to get through this and you will not walk alone. It is worth every sacrifice. You have been through so much, it is okay to rest now. Do your best....then let it go. Remember that this day is temporary. Your story will always have ups and downs, be patient with all of it. This part might hurt a little, sweet girl, but it is absolutely necessary. Love is good. Peace is good. Life is good. Pain has valuable, beautiful lessons...listen closely. Be willing to sacrifice...it will be worth it, and sometimes it's the only way. Be kind to your soul. No more mean self talk, beautiful you. It is a brand new day...the past is behind you...the future is fresh and new. You get to choose. Only you can choose to do this work and you don't have to do it alone. Choose what's best, not just what's good. Try to look for what's right before looking for what's wrong. The truth is beautiful and healing...it's time to believe in it. You are precious. You are valuable. You are capable. You will do what you need to do. It's okay to go a different way than those around you as long as it is the way of truth. Ignore the lies, tell them to leave, they do not belong here. It's okay if others don't understand. Being thankful is one of the most important parts of life. Keep learning life lessons, that's what it's all about. Don't let anything trap you. What's done is done, it's time to heal. You did all that you could do, it's time to forgive yourself. Everyone is working on learning their own truths...everyone is in a different place on their journey. It's okay if some people are in your life for just a little while. It's time to forgive yourself. Walk in the light and out of darkness. A beautiful life awaits, take hold. It's never too late to choose the right road. It's okay to step back and watch and wait for a little while. It's okay. You have been watched over all along. You made it now...a beautiful miracle. - Thank you Brave Girl.
“When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others.” – Peace Pilgram